Bloody can't believe this

My mum left to send my sister to tuition without me! And I'm having tuition now!! ): my bloody impatient sister just can't WAIT for another fucking 3 minutes for me to shower.


And when they left, my dad came down and scolded me. And he can't even send me to tuition cause my mum took her keys! I feel damn bloody fucked up right now.






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Tried to hold back my tears

While I was with my mum In the car just now, when I read your messages.



Now I'm listening to crazy love by Michael Buble best song ever by him. Making me sob like crazy now )': memang crazy love (':


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I kinda thought we could..?

But I don't think it's really working out ):


No matter how many times I say it, it won't mean anything unless I say it to your face..


I know it's just a phase, a very very long phase, but I don't want this to go away, so I'll wait, and I'll persevere.


You just don't know how much pain I feel, even if you say you do, I really don't think you can even begin to understand how I really feel.. Sometimes it feels like we're just hi-bye friends. You think we're till the stage that I can be left alone like a hamster in a cage for months and still be able to survive, but I'm not. We're just starting out on this, and I really think this whole thing was kinda a bad idea ): ): hate it when I say a million things and all I get are mere mms and ahhs. I hate the fact that I share too much with you even if I get nothing in return. Maybe I should share less, or none at all. Am I LOOKING for trouble? Confused.



But it's okay, I will persevere, this I promise you. Loving you was never a mistake (:







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He's so cute!! (:

My new pet raccoon!! (: (:

Lighting very bad I know ): and yes, Desperate Housewives has made my eyebags more obvious )':


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Back home after confession (:

Was by far the most emotional one I've ever gone through /: cried a lot ):


But when I came home, I looked up and saw so many stars! Never seen so many stars in PJ before :x :x it was so bright and pretty! And it reminded me of God's love for all us sinners (: I'm very touched (':


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I love my boyfriend (:

And I'm not afraid to say it!! (: (:


Happy 3 months anniversary baby boy, Itluchu!! (:


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Thank you awesome teacher

Who confiscated my liquid paper on the FIRST day of exams (:

Because of you, I have to 'roller-off' the whole freaking line that I drew crooked thanks to my partial Parkinsonism (:


THANK YOU!


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Found this on twitter

And I find it really touching, and true!

What's teenage love?
It's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day. It's passing each other in the hall to say Hi, and ending up running in right at the bell. It's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with silence that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulder, & you resting your head in his arms. It's walking around at night with no reason at all. His chest; her head; and looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love. It's teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our hearts &never;go away.
♥




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I hate money.

Have you ever felt SOO close to your future and dreams, just to know that money is the only thing in the way?


Yes, money is the only thing that separates me from my dream university. It is the only thing that separates me from my dream college as well.



It is one of the most evident proof of the seven deadly sin in human beings. Greed.



It is one of the things that separates the society into 2 huge sectors.




It. Pisses. Me. Off.


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I know that it might sound

More than a little crazy,
But I believe,


I knew I loved you before I met you,
I think I dreamed you into life,
I knew I loved you before I met you,
I have been waiting all my life <3


I love you, baby. And this song reminds me so much of you (':

Went down to KL today and I saw beautiful dangling lights on the trees (:
Gave me this christmasy feeling and reminded me so much of you <3

Now every week when I walk down that street, you'd definitely be on my mind (:


我爱你，宝贝 (':





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Currently at one of my favourite restaurants (:

It's my favourite cause I've been here with you <3 everywhere I went with you feels special even though I'm here alone (:


Miss you so so much )':


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I hate guys with low self-esteem -.-

Gee, I'm trying my best to find some other way to bring you out with us and how do you repay me? Telling me off and saying we don't care about you and all that shit.


Eh news flash? If I didn't care I wouldn't have called up so many people to swap class with me kay?


You're not the only problem I have kay. We all know how lonely people can get but you dont have to make it sound like you're the only one going through it.


Don't know why I'm so grumpy lately, maybe I'm just lacking of prayer. And meat. Quite frankly I'm starving and craving for meat all the time. So I guess this fasting is not going as well as I've planned.

At church now going home.


It's true what he said, I am weak. I'm fragile, I admit. I'm vulnerable, and I'm lonely.


But one thing I believe is, that I can do anything, through Christ, who gives me strength. I will pull through this tough period. And I will no longer show fear or frailty.



One thing that surprised me was, he said he could see my fragileness just through my eyes. How is that possible?


Are my eyes and my smile really that transparent? Am I really that weak that it shows through my looks? That's what he thinks. So what if I'm a helpless romantic, I don't see that as a weakness. I see that as a gift. And truly I've not been living up that gift. I'm gonna be more loving and compassionate towards others, patient and helpful, to those around me.


I'm gonna prove all of you wrong.



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Listening to you and I by secondhand serenade in the car

And tearing cause I miss you so much )':

I feel a weird pressure pressing against my chest, making it difficult for breathing..


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Just came back from football practice!

Was really fun! Played defender slash goalkeeper (: though there were only 3 in each team. LOLOLOL!


Gonna go do my Chem folio right now! Yea, and I'm gonna finish it. SUCKIT! :D heh heh (:


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Was walking under the rain to Taman Jaya,

When we saw...




Peahens!! :O

3 of them!! :D

Today was so fun (: cept the part where I lost my touch and go card. /: and I didn't get my bag, was super devastated )': sighh.



P/s : I'm glad I took off my twitter app for my blog, now creepy stalker guy can't creepily stalk me (:
He's damn creepy I tell you hor, blog! ): wish someone was here to protect me from his creepiness ): probably a invisible force field that'll laserbeam him whenever he comes near or texts me -.-


Gahhh! Go away leave me alone ): ): why won't you give up.


Pp/s : I sooooo wanna go dancing (: hint hint wink wink (: COUGHS *prom* (: glee's Furt episode made me cry )':

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I feel so proud of myself :P

I said it was so tough, I was so tired, I couldn't do it, bla bla bla

But once I sat down and truly focused, I wrote 1 whole page on " My thoughts on Caesar's death " :P though most of it was all crap and it kept repeating itself ):



But I did it!! (: (:


Now on to the character log :x wish me luck!! (:


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Slept at 3 last night

Didn't nap,
Now gonna hardcore moral and physics.
On top of that, I'm sick.


-CRIES- )':


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I'm so tired ):

Yet I don't wanna sleep..
I'm afraid I'd forget everything :x



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NOO!

I must be more independent! How can I just rely on one person! I wanna be able to decide my emotions for myself, don't wanna be always hanging onto something ALL THE TIME!


WTH is wrong with me?! T___T


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No matter how hard I try to stay away from you

I never can ):


Got so much on my chest I have to say, but there's never a right time for it.. )':


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Finished studying 30 minutes ago,

But I wanted to stay up so I could talk to you (:


Sorry I couldn't wait any longer ): I think you'd probably take some time so yeah :x


Gosh, I really do envy those girls /: sighh.. Maybe I should occupy myself all the time.

Cause when I'm bored, I feel lonely,
when I feel lonely, I start to think,
When I think, I do stupid shit.

We don't want stupid shit to go down, do we?



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My hands are trembling now,

Can't even play the piano, can't even walk straight..


Shaken with fear.. ):


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Sigh..

Happened to me again..


Why can't I be normal like before..? )':


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I admit,

I'm really jealous of girls who get to see their boyfriends everyday ):



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Just cut my fringe (:

Loving the length now! :D

My cousin just brought over my altered dress (: (:


Fits perfectly now but the shoulder Thingy looks weird ): oh well! At least my hair is long enough to cover :D


I wish I could be happy like this everyday (: (:


I love my cousin and lame partner for making my day (: (:

What I learned in Sunday school today : when you're sad or bored, laugh, for no reason (:


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I tried to kill the awesomest person on earth,

But suicide is a crime (:


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I thought I wanted this,

But seems like I stand no chance )':




NO ONE TOLD ME THERE WAS DANCING -.-


Oh well, at least I gave it a try /:


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They make the cutest couple (:

But it's hard to see the pain she's hiding inside..


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Been so lost and confused lately..

With so many decisions to make and things happening round me,



But you won't understand..



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When I came home from school..

This song played on the radio.

When I was lunching, my sister played it on YouTube.

On the way to tuition, I played it twice with my phone.

I listened to it twice before I started studying.

And it played once again when I turned on the radio a minute ago.


It's a sign from the universe telling me to spare my tears and go to bed, and bed I shall (:


Night blog (: -pats-


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Freaking depressed right now

Thinking of so many things that had happened,

I think I should take a break and just cry it all out,

Till then my dear blog (: will tell you bout it some other time (:


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I wish..

I was super hot

Then I'd have guys in my disposal

So they can help me carry my books. (:


Pardon me,

Having a bad bad BAD night. And no ones available. Oh well. This is how I pictured my death, lonely.




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My aircond died on me

And I'm having a super terrible rash.

And I have to study.



I wanna jump off a building -.-


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My physics teacher is super duper cute!! (:

So today I went to physics early cause I needed help with the light chapter, needed teacher to shine some 'light' unto it. Buh-dum-boom.

Anyways! My teacher, he's kinda old now, but very wise nonetheless (: last year he saw my phone and asked,

WAHHH! WHY CAN TOUCH TOUCH ONE!

I told him it was heat censored and he was like,

SO YOUR CAT CAN PLAY ALSO LAH!

Hahahahah, super cute I know (:

Then today he told me his daughter gave him a iPhone 3GS (: but he said he didn't know how to use it /: and when I asked why, he said he couldn't on it so this is how it went

Me : have you tried charging it?

Sir : I don't dare to charge cause the phone says not to!

Me : I think you should charge it /:

Sir : NOOO! the plug and the lightning button means don't charge! Lightning is danger ma! So I'm scared if I charge my phone will explode!


Took me a while to convince him that it was alright to charge it /:

He kept asking me in class, ' Sure ar sure ar? '

Haha, yes teacher, I'm very sure.



Old people are so cute (:


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Something came in the mail for me! (:

Was superduper happy when I came home from school today! (:

1. Todays the first day in 2011 that I've not slept in class. WHOO! :D what an accomplishment for me! -holds up the applause sign-


Applaud for me, foolish mortals! MUHAHAHA >)


And 2!

Something came in the mail for me! No, it's not my limited edition pink fluffy unicorns dancing on rainbows T-shirt.

Is a card from my boyfriend! (:

Though it's like half a month late, happy valentines day to you bi! (:

That boy never fails to make me smile (: he's the sweetest boyfriend a girl could ever dream of having <3



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